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I cossed a girl and I liked it (kinda)...
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ZeroEnna
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16 July 2012
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This week end was amazing!
As you may have heard, I was on a convention in Dortmund, NRW, this week end together with my webradio team.
We had a full broadcast, so everyone who was not on-site didn't miss anything!
The week end started with a stressful and annoying discussion marathon. I had to work on friday, but glad to my job as an IT specialist, I could work from home. The only problem was: We wanted to start at 2 p.m., but the car wasn't packed, the apartment wasn't tidied up, and as I said, I had to work, too.
So between two support calls, I rushed to the car and stuff every piece of equipment, then vacuum cleaned the floors and did the dishes...
When we were finally driving on the high way, I knew that the most troublesome part was finally over...
We had a nice evening with our team and went to bed early, as the next day would come too soon.
At 7 a.m. on saturday, our night was over. After breakfast, our tech staff (me and my pal ran over the the con-hall and set everything up.
After the briefing, I had several minutes left before we had to start our broadcast.
So I rushed to the toilets and got ready for my first en femme (in the broadest sense) experience.
I felt kind of nervous when I left the toilet and returned to our nerve center.
Of course the reactions were widespread. From a sympathic, yet encouraging laugh, to stunning and disagreeing "WTF?" faces, I got everything I (didn't) ask for.
But after my hair was done and the final adjustments were made, my day could start...
Though I had some problems concerning...unwanted body reactions (to express it objectively) in prep time few weeks before the con, this time, everything went fine.
The most surprising part was that suddenly, I got a totally different body feeling. I walked differently, i gestured differently...didn't think that a simple costume could cause it
But the whole suit had some nasty side effect. I almost wore NOTHING...I mean, that suit has not that much fabric at all. But I was sweating like hell. A few minutes after I had it on, I felt the water dripping from my forehead.... I was really glad the I didn't use any make up. It would have been necessary, though.
A few hours into the day, I noticed some other sailor senshi cosplayer snapping pictures right in front of our stand. I swear to god, I didn't do anything to get attention, because I thought "They look gorgeous...I wouldn't fit in, though..."
But suddely, that Sailor Moon went up to me, smiled and said "you look great. Wanna take some pics?"
Her partner, an amazing "Belle"-cosplayer (nicknamed "The Beauty and the Camera")told me how to pose, and snap, I got the first picture. When reviewing it online, I realized, that I didn't look that bad. I have to admit, that I am far from perfect, but my costume turned out nicer than I imagined it.
At 6 p.m., my wife asked me to escort her to the hotel. She twisted her ankle a few days earlier (some bad twist in fate, I suppose...) and couldn't stand any longer.
Though it was great to cosplay a girl, wearing a skirt and stuff, I realized that week end what I really wanted to do. I realized, that I get very uncomfortable crossdressing in public (that is, outside a convention). Even the way to the parking lot (to get some supplies) was strange. The moment I left the premises, I felt strange and thought "get back asap!".
So before I took her to the hotel, I changed again, also because it got way to warm in it...
So, what lessons do I draw?
First, I think that being a girl on conventions is enough for me. I shocked my wife by saying "I didn't look convincing enough. I have to look way more girly", so she thought I would take it way beyond cosplay and want to become a transgendered person. No, I never want to, even though it was a great experience and I am curious, what it would feel like! But I am not confident enough to wear a skirt outside a convention ground, plus I am okay being a boy!
But on the other side, I also think that I could take it a step further. I want to look as convincing as possible without crossing the line of transsexuality. I think about make up and stuff to make my face more smooth and girly, but I am not ashamed to show "Hey, I am a guy, but I try my best!"
To me, it's just another thing with cosplay: Do your best, get as many details as possible, but if something is not feasible, it's okay!
I am not going to break my ribs to get a more female body shape, I am not going to do surgery to get boobs, and I definately not going to take hormones!
Yesterday evening, I had another talk with my wife where I declared the same things. I wasn't persuasive enough, I suppose. She was really suspicious about my statements, but I think she's okay with it. She accepts that I like cosplaying girls, and that I would try to pass as good as possible, as long as I just do this: cosplaying.
To sum it up, this week end was intense, but got me to another girl costume. Because of another lost bet, I have to cosplay another girl in November...can't wait to get to it!
UPDATE: Every time I think I know her, my wife surprises me once more. We sat together yesterday (Tuesday evening) and talked about possible cosplays for November besides the one that is set already (not a girl, but Edward Elric from the Shamballa arc). We had a crazy yet amazing idea: We switch roles. She is doing Tuxedo Mask with me as Sailor Moon....do I have to note that I like this idea?
As you may have heard, I was on a convention in Dortmund, NRW, this week end together with my webradio team.
We had a full broadcast, so everyone who was not on-site didn't miss anything!
The week end started with a stressful and annoying discussion marathon. I had to work on friday, but glad to my job as an IT specialist, I could work from home. The only problem was: We wanted to start at 2 p.m., but the car wasn't packed, the apartment wasn't tidied up, and as I said, I had to work, too.
So between two support calls, I rushed to the car and stuff every piece of equipment, then vacuum cleaned the floors and did the dishes...
When we were finally driving on the high way, I knew that the most troublesome part was finally over...
We had a nice evening with our team and went to bed early, as the next day would come too soon.
At 7 a.m. on saturday, our night was over. After breakfast, our tech staff (me and my pal ran over the the con-hall and set everything up.
After the briefing, I had several minutes left before we had to start our broadcast.
So I rushed to the toilets and got ready for my first en femme (in the broadest sense) experience.
I felt kind of nervous when I left the toilet and returned to our nerve center.
Of course the reactions were widespread. From a sympathic, yet encouraging laugh, to stunning and disagreeing "WTF?" faces, I got everything I (didn't) ask for.
But after my hair was done and the final adjustments were made, my day could start...
Though I had some problems concerning...unwanted body reactions (to express it objectively) in prep time few weeks before the con, this time, everything went fine.
The most surprising part was that suddenly, I got a totally different body feeling. I walked differently, i gestured differently...didn't think that a simple costume could cause it
But the whole suit had some nasty side effect. I almost wore NOTHING...I mean, that suit has not that much fabric at all. But I was sweating like hell. A few minutes after I had it on, I felt the water dripping from my forehead.... I was really glad the I didn't use any make up. It would have been necessary, though.
A few hours into the day, I noticed some other sailor senshi cosplayer snapping pictures right in front of our stand. I swear to god, I didn't do anything to get attention, because I thought "They look gorgeous...I wouldn't fit in, though..."
But suddely, that Sailor Moon went up to me, smiled and said "you look great. Wanna take some pics?"
Her partner, an amazing "Belle"-cosplayer (nicknamed "The Beauty and the Camera")told me how to pose, and snap, I got the first picture. When reviewing it online, I realized, that I didn't look that bad. I have to admit, that I am far from perfect, but my costume turned out nicer than I imagined it.
At 6 p.m., my wife asked me to escort her to the hotel. She twisted her ankle a few days earlier (some bad twist in fate, I suppose...) and couldn't stand any longer.
Though it was great to cosplay a girl, wearing a skirt and stuff, I realized that week end what I really wanted to do. I realized, that I get very uncomfortable crossdressing in public (that is, outside a convention). Even the way to the parking lot (to get some supplies) was strange. The moment I left the premises, I felt strange and thought "get back asap!".
So before I took her to the hotel, I changed again, also because it got way to warm in it...
So, what lessons do I draw?
First, I think that being a girl on conventions is enough for me. I shocked my wife by saying "I didn't look convincing enough. I have to look way more girly", so she thought I would take it way beyond cosplay and want to become a transgendered person. No, I never want to, even though it was a great experience and I am curious, what it would feel like! But I am not confident enough to wear a skirt outside a convention ground, plus I am okay being a boy!
But on the other side, I also think that I could take it a step further. I want to look as convincing as possible without crossing the line of transsexuality. I think about make up and stuff to make my face more smooth and girly, but I am not ashamed to show "Hey, I am a guy, but I try my best!"
To me, it's just another thing with cosplay: Do your best, get as many details as possible, but if something is not feasible, it's okay!
I am not going to break my ribs to get a more female body shape, I am not going to do surgery to get boobs, and I definately not going to take hormones!
Yesterday evening, I had another talk with my wife where I declared the same things. I wasn't persuasive enough, I suppose. She was really suspicious about my statements, but I think she's okay with it. She accepts that I like cosplaying girls, and that I would try to pass as good as possible, as long as I just do this: cosplaying.
To sum it up, this week end was intense, but got me to another girl costume. Because of another lost bet, I have to cosplay another girl in November...can't wait to get to it!
UPDATE: Every time I think I know her, my wife surprises me once more. We sat together yesterday (Tuesday evening) and talked about possible cosplays for November besides the one that is set already (not a girl, but Edward Elric from the Shamballa arc). We had a crazy yet amazing idea: We switch roles. She is doing Tuxedo Mask with me as Sailor Moon....do I have to note that I like this idea?
