Benefits to me being a Transwoman

It seems that you have set certain gender goals for yourself, and no doubt you are working to achieve those goals, as stated above. Good for you !!! A lot of trans women seem to be in a state of confusion, and stay depressed with no motivation to do anything about their transition. You do not seem to be like that, and are able to plan out and execute your plans and goals. Keep going forward with your transition, knowing that myself, as well as many others, are pleased and want to encourage you as you continue on.

like I often said, I admire transpeople for the strength they definitely must have, because I only can imagine the ordeal you are going trough.
It's sad that there are friends preying on you, but those who stay close to you will be the most important people.
Not to put me in the spolight, but let me tell you a short story.
I don't want to sound rude, but it seems that I attract people who are different.
My first friend eventually turned out to have bisexual tendencies. I worked together with to gay guys in the local radio station, at my last year in school, it turned out that two of my best friends became a lesbian couple, later at my vocational school, I again met a lesbian girl, one of my business partners is lesbian, and in a few weeks one of my best friends (a transman) is finally able to start his transition. And each and every one of them was supporting me on what I was doing at that time, because I was different from the rest of the respective environment, and they were, too.
What I want to say, the people staying with you on your way a different themselves, I'm sure of that. You may not see it at first glance, but I'm sure will figure out.

I wish you all the best for your way.

You remind me alot of myself. I dont feel like i was born a woman in a mans body. I just want to be more like a woman. I dont care about giving birth but it is a shame i might never have my own children (darn estrogen making sperm steryle) I dont have a super slim figure like some trans but i dont want that to stop me and i dont really find men attractive. Some might say why would you try to turn into a girl to be with girls but i dont think they understand i just want to be in lesbiens with them.

darn no auto correct.

Sure in my mind it is a disappointment to go sterial, but twins run in my family, having a family means high expenses, bringing kids into this world with a father who would be hating himself and maybe changing or hurting myself at the point; I dont want that. I hate myself sometimes because of the decision, and I dont want to take my sperm to the bank to reserve, thats too expensive too.

I think you're probably not going to lose any of your friends. You might be worried that you will, but when they get to know the real you, they're going to be like "ooohhhhh I seeeeee noooowwwww" and then you'll get past that awkwardness I'm sure you may have experienced already.

Im slowly telling people, as soon as classes are done this semester for college I am planning to see a therapist and start telling my family.

Very cool. How much you want to bet your family ends up supporting you financially in this? You sure you have to wait out the semester? Girls do like to make plans for things, but it seems like an arbitrary deadline that doesn't have anything to do with anything. Make the appointment yourself, now, and show up with just enough money for a co-pay. Act shocked if your dad's insurance doesn't cover it. I bet the doctor still sees you that day. The depression made you do it. Remember, it's easier to ask forgiveness than permission.

Thats a good point. I really want to do that but,  with school (my main priority), work, and the social life I am trying to keep up, I dont think I can do it now, its the fear thats getting to me. I also have it down to 3 therapists in my area, and they are a lot cheaper than what most sites say per session are for this type of thing, seriously, $20-60 per session in comparison to the $120-300 I have read all over the internetz.

Hey, I completely understand what you're going through. That fear you speak of, the fear of being what you really are. Don't let it ruin your life. I let that fear prevent me from transitioning. It wasn't until I realized that I'd rather kill myself than live life as a male that I was able to overcome that fear. Fear is the best teacher, I will say that.