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Taking some baby steps
Posted by
AndriaTrap
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10 October 2011
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So if you don't already know me I've been on this site for 5 years as of tomorrow and I started coming on here when I was 13. I'm not sure what to call myself since I'm not a cut and dry M2F transgender since I have no interest in SRS and I'm on the fence about fully transitioning, but this is why I'm taking things one step at a time. I am now 18 and in college. I've slowly began to start coming out of my shell now that I don't have to deal with all the pressures of fitting in in high school. By this I mean I started to take baby steps towards transitioning.
Last Wednesday I stopped wearing boxers completely and I now wear a bra and pantie everyday instead. I'm still dressing as a male though but depending how things go that may change. I so far like the change and I plan to continue this indefinitely. I haven't had any real big problems so far, I've just had to adjust my bra straps once or twice in class. Another problem I've had is the fact that I don't own any sweats or pajamas so if someone comes bursting into my room and wakes me up because they need something in my room I can't do anything but try and cover myself in my bed because I sleep in a shirt and panties so I'll try and get some sweats too. But on top of this change I've made another.
At school I've met my almost exact brain-twin which we found out after a long conversation where we bro'd out and talked about girls and family and we found out we were raised in very similar family dynamics and had similar childhoods to the point where it's almost scary we both have A.D.D. without hyperactivity, social recluses, and a similar level of mental acuity. But I eventually told him that I'm transgendered and he came clean and told me he's a cross dresser. He is the first friend that I have told everything to and I mean completely everything and it feels good to have shared it with somebody. I'm not sure if I should tell more of my friends or not because I'm not sure if I will fully transition or not and I don't want them to change how they think of or act towards me.
Well I just felt like sharing my story. If you want to share a similar experience or want to ask questions feel free to leave them in the comments and I'll get back to you as soon as you can.
Last Wednesday I stopped wearing boxers completely and I now wear a bra and pantie everyday instead. I'm still dressing as a male though but depending how things go that may change. I so far like the change and I plan to continue this indefinitely. I haven't had any real big problems so far, I've just had to adjust my bra straps once or twice in class. Another problem I've had is the fact that I don't own any sweats or pajamas so if someone comes bursting into my room and wakes me up because they need something in my room I can't do anything but try and cover myself in my bed because I sleep in a shirt and panties so I'll try and get some sweats too. But on top of this change I've made another.
At school I've met my almost exact brain-twin which we found out after a long conversation where we bro'd out and talked about girls and family and we found out we were raised in very similar family dynamics and had similar childhoods to the point where it's almost scary we both have A.D.D. without hyperactivity, social recluses, and a similar level of mental acuity. But I eventually told him that I'm transgendered and he came clean and told me he's a cross dresser. He is the first friend that I have told everything to and I mean completely everything and it feels good to have shared it with somebody. I'm not sure if I should tell more of my friends or not because I'm not sure if I will fully transition or not and I don't want them to change how they think of or act towards me.
Well I just felt like sharing my story. If you want to share a similar experience or want to ask questions feel free to leave them in the comments and I'll get back to you as soon as you can.
with gender being a spectrum, imo being mtf doesn't necessarily imply srs. there are many degrees, and although a lot of the literature and support out there are geared towards transition as ending in srs your path is your own! i'm saying this from personal experience and years of pondering this - and i've recently found some folks on reddit's irc of all places who helped make that point clear!
you'll figure it out by being aware and questioning, but don't feel pressured to conform to any 'norms' because of lack of information or social pressure! you're you, and that's a great person to be as you develop into it! ;B
<3 keep rockin girl!